Le sigh. It's been so long since I posted. While I haven't stopped shooting. And I haven't missed a day yet. I have been very lax on posting. That is because of many reasons. There has been much upheaval. The BF and I house sat for a good friend, Kenar, the month of Sept. while she was in Turkey. And the weekend before Thanksgiving she lost her battle with cancer. She was in such a deep state of denial that she didn't deal with it. It has been very very hard on me. We had become such good friends. We hung out a lot and she kept my spirits up when I was having a bad day.
Kenar and I had many long talks about being sick and how to deal with the day to day BS. She had this strange notion that she had in some way she had caused her cancer. And she couldn't understand why I have RA because I am a good person. I never understood why she thought that the cancer was her penance. She had gone to several holistic doctors that told her she could cure the cancer by changing her thinking or eating differently or drinking some kind of tea. I had told her on many occasions that I thought she should go to a Western doctor and have it cut out and have chemo. But I told her it's her journey, her path and that she had to make the decision. And she kept telling me that Western doctors are only out to cut and make money. That she could do this a different way. She was so stubborn.
After Halloween I hadn't heard from her in several weeks. I started to get worried. I had called, I had texted, I had emailed. I was ready to go over to her house and find out why she hadn't gotten back to me. Her cousin called me back after I had called like 3 times in a row. Kenar was in the hospital and cancer had spread to her bones, her liver and brain. And things didn't look good. The BF and I would go visit her in the hospital. She didn't look good. Her family decided to try radiation, to try to buy her some time. It didn't work, so they took her home. Kenar passed at home on Nov. 20th at 7:20 am. She was 36 years old.
Kenar's death has thrown me. I am very confused. I know that there wasn't anything I could do to change her mind about getting some kind of treatment. I am just so very sad that I lost someone who special to me. If you only met Kenar once, she made you feel like you had known her forever. She was so giving and so kind.
Even just this little bit of writing doesn't even remotely touch on how I feel. It's been so rough on me.
With the upcoming holidays, things are only gonna get busier. And I know that I need to take some time for myself and get the things done that I have neglected. This blog is one of those things. I promise that this will be all up to date before the new year. I promise! :)
DAY 53
This is a water feature in front of the FedEx office here in Burbank. I love the falling water and the color of the stone. It's kind of hard to see here. It works better in real life.
DAY 52
The BF aunt was going back to Mexico and we took her to LAX. But we had a ton of time to kill before her flight. So we went over to the Tom Bradley building to get some food and to walk around. I love the big board of Departures!
DAY 51
OMG!!! This was a DRAMA filled day!!! It was a continuation from the day before. I will try to make a long story short. So the lady in the picture is Luz. She is the best friend of my Sister in Law (SiL) She was having major drama with a TV she had purchased from Best Buy. It was an open box and didn't have the screws for the base. Several hours later, we had the screws and we took it back to her place to install the base and hook it up. When it was plugged in and turned on, I noticed a dead pixel in the upper right hand side. It was very noticeable. So we unplugged everything and repacked it and decided to meet up the next day to get the TV swapped.
So I woke up early the next morning and we got her TV swapped out. So this is a picture of her standing next to the new TV, very HAPPY!
DAY 50
I shot this waiting for the BF's aunt to come out of church. She is from Mexico and we would take her down the cathedral in Downtown LA. This man got out of an SUV and started to put on some robes. I don't know who is but I thought it was interesting how the man was being treated with kit gloves.
DAY 49
The reason Teresa and hung out the day before was to chat about taking pictures. Teresa is a blogger for many sites including Tor.com and ChinaShopMag.com. She asked me to take pictures for an article she was writing on a short film called Hughes the Force. It is a funny film combining John Hughes sensibilities and Star Wars. This was the premiere in Hollywood at Harmony Gold. It was a really good film. And I had a blast taking pictures for her. Hopefully, Teresa will ask me again to shoot photos for articles she writes.
DAY 48
This is a friend of mine. Her name is Teresa and you can check out her blog here http://teresajusino.wordpress.com/
She and I hung out. I made sure I got a picture of us.
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